WIAW-Mothers day

This WIAW is based on mothers day. For those of us in the UK last Sunday was mothers day; where we celebrate our love for our mummies:) I love my Mum so much and don't know what I would do without her. I will really miss her when I go away to Bournemouth. I treated her to a michael Jackson top, a photo with a picture of me and her in it:

I also got her this journal, called from you to me. My mum has quite bad memory problems, it has gotten worse over the past year to the point where she has sent money to people and not even realised what she was doing. She's still having tests to get a proper diagnosis its not dementia, but is most likely caused by previous overdoses, as a recent scan showed a decrease in her brain matter. So I am always trying to find things that can help with her memory and this seemed ideal; its basically something for her to fill in to tell me all about her life,and what I was like as a child. Their is more info here if anyone wanted to check it out. gifts. 

After I had exchanged gifts. I had my breakfast; I tried the Philadelphia cream cheese and cadburys chocolate and it was so so nice!!!, the other side was honey

Then had a pressing date with my lovely boyfriend. This involved a cycle ride with a tea stop. We usually stop halfway through the ride, the place we planned to go to was actually closed!!! But knowing the area fairly well we cycled to the Cranks Resturant in Totnes. Its a quite famous vegetarian resturant.  Andy had his usual cream tea  which I had a piece off, and I had some wholemeal toast and jam. after the stop we did a loop, overall I think we did 25 miles. Was a fairly easy ride for me, as I seem to climb like a goat in my new bike:p 

Came home showered, and turned from a sweaty cyclist to a less sweaty cyclist. I love wearing red. Think it looks quite nice with blonde hair. 

I had booked us in a local resturant, that is always so hard to get booked in too. At xmas they get fully booked by AUGUST!!!!! They do a really great carvery, and it also pleases me as they do my favourite veggie nut roast:

I had it with a huge side of vegetables:

 Okay this is where I felt the ed was starting to annoy me. I do love the nut roast, but I kind of wanted something different, but wasn't sure how it would turn up, what would be in it etc.  Sometimes the internal battle can be so tormenting,  I just wish I could go out for a meal and choose what I wanted not what the ed wanted. Although it was a really nice meal, and the nut roast is one of the most nicest things that I have tried. It was also really nice to spend some time with my Mum as we don't often get to do, as she never goes out.

Dinner was a butternut squash rissoto that I had made previously, I accidently forgot to take it out the lid, well I did think it would be oven proof clearnly not haha

It was edible though once I had transfered it to a plate, had it with  some goats cheese on top, a veggie sausage and a load of vegetables. 

Before bed I had one of my favourite breakfasts:

Dorset cereals gingerbread oats with peanut butter

I have finally been able to run again!!! I went to a running shop on Monday, and got some amazing advice. I have been in the wrong trainers I am going to do a post about this soon, but I spent nearly two hours trying to find the right shoe. 

Do you have a snack before bed? Whats your favourite? I think mine is usually some form of cereal. 

Did you do anything nice for mothers day? 

back at Mum's

So I had a bit of a crazy insane day yesterday, not me but one of my house mates I reside with. Well to cut a long story short he suffers with schizophrenia and yesterday before I was about to go out he started shouting, swearing, then it got worse more louder more intense more scary I called up st maurs (the supported housing place that manages where I was) and asked them to come down they were going to call him. It then got worse and he started to shout more till the point he was crying and I couldn't just leave him I was about to leave to go to my mums so as scared as I was I guess my natural instincts kicked in of caring for others and had to see if he was okay I saw him with his head covered in blood and in a quivering mess on the floor so I comforted him and cleaned up his cut and took him in the lounge to talk to him about meaningful things. It felt like the longest 5 minutes of my life waiting for some staff member to come.

Although  fee bad saying this I don't think I can leave in the same house as him anymore. Although he is not dangerous, it was the final straw yesterday. I have a lot of deep rooted issues with men and this brought it all back an flashbacks galore. I went to my Mum's and asked if I can stay for a while I am not sure how long but it feels okay.

I just can't live their, It has caused my ed to get worse. I went back later on to get some things and speak with Matt a support worker who is beyond brilliant in supporting people with MH difficulties. We talked and he helped me find ways to come with the flashbacks and also acknowledge how Adrian reminds me of my past abusers his split personality how he can be so sweet most of the time but when he has his moments they scare the crap out of me.

I have begun to trust men more. Derek who recently died touched me so much he was the first man who I felt comfortable with and most importanly safe with and made me feel so good. Even though he was a close friend he was more like a grandad to me and their is also two male staff I have got close to in a support sense who have restored my faith in mankind.

Anyway enough ramblings. apart from yesterday's drama I cooked a lush chickpea stew which I will post later on today when I get back from dinner with a friend. I bought some almond butter today but I think I prefer cashew butter I may try some on toast as just had some apple and almond butter with it. I am also enjoying being at my Mum's especially with my lovely cats.